Friday, October 3, 2008
♥ Fine Again
Home.
What is that?
I just established my new home point.. and I feel like it's fucked up once again.
Here I am, at the original home. You know, all that stuff where your parents take care of you, all that shit. No.. it doesn't feel like home. I feel many desires at once. Too many. My empathy fills me with feelings that aren't my own, while at the same time, I feel the strangest and strongest pulls back toward the city of Ames. I want to know its secrets, to know what else is there. Vampires.
I know they exist.
They must. It makes sense to me. And I fear I'm displaying more and more instincts they may possess.
As I sit here.. with a friend of mine annoyingly singing behind me, I find I want to run outside, run.. Just run. Run and howl. Run and kill, and feed. Run, sleep, bathe in the cool water of nature and in its moonlight. I'm clawing my desk, and I'm howling. Actually howling.
My head is in a jumble. My animal side wants control. Sakuya and Maverick are both lost somewhere.
And this pull toward Ames..
I don't think the homesickness is over yet.
And I crave blood. Warm, thick blood, biting and sinking my teeth into flesh and sucking out the blood to warm my own body. I'm cold as stone. My arms and nose, fingers and toes are all freezing.
Do I need help?
/cringe
What is that?
I just established my new home point.. and I feel like it's fucked up once again.
Here I am, at the original home. You know, all that stuff where your parents take care of you, all that shit. No.. it doesn't feel like home. I feel many desires at once. Too many. My empathy fills me with feelings that aren't my own, while at the same time, I feel the strangest and strongest pulls back toward the city of Ames. I want to know its secrets, to know what else is there. Vampires.
I know they exist.
They must. It makes sense to me. And I fear I'm displaying more and more instincts they may possess.
As I sit here.. with a friend of mine annoyingly singing behind me, I find I want to run outside, run.. Just run. Run and howl. Run and kill, and feed. Run, sleep, bathe in the cool water of nature and in its moonlight. I'm clawing my desk, and I'm howling. Actually howling.
My head is in a jumble. My animal side wants control. Sakuya and Maverick are both lost somewhere.
And this pull toward Ames..
I don't think the homesickness is over yet.
And I crave blood. Warm, thick blood, biting and sinking my teeth into flesh and sucking out the blood to warm my own body. I'm cold as stone. My arms and nose, fingers and toes are all freezing.
Do I need help?
/cringe
♥ My
doll smiled.
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