Friday, October 3, 2008
♥ Everything Changes
I'm surprisingly pleased with myself.
Can I really detach myself so easily? I doubt it.
If someone makes a move on him in the guild, I'll probably still get defensive. But.. Oh well. I'll be alright.
We've agreed to just let it go. It was a dream we wished could come true, but we both realize it won't. It would be nice, but it won't. There is no realistic way to go about it. And while other dreams that I had along with meeting him popped like bubbles, I'll be alright.
To think.. I actually dreamed of being in a number of his photos. Not in a sexual way, just to be.. in photos. To look pretty. To be used as a model. I liked the idea. I still do. Given I have flaws, but.. who doesn't?
It could still happen. He could still describe to me what he wants, I take the picture, he plays with it in photoshop, but that would turn out to be horrendously complicated most likely. Oh well. It wouldn't be the same. Like everything else related to those dreams, I'm clicking on them and dragging them to the recycle bin. It's nice to know that if I do have an opportunity to meet him though.. if I could get out there, not just to meet him, but if I happen to be in the neighborhood, I'll visit.
I want to travel when I get out of college. I wanna see places, know things before I happen to maybe meet someone and stay in one location.
I'm a nomadic animal on the move with no herd. I'm a family of one.
I want to see parts of Europe and Egypt the most. And I want to go back to China, to see the countryside. I wanna see Alaska, and iceland, Hawaii.. I really want to travel.
Are these my own urges? Or am I getting them from somewhere like usual? I hate my sixth sense sometimes.
But, all in all, I'm happy. I'm content. I'll probably have some withdrawl issues, but.. oh well. They won't last long.
Can I really detach myself so easily? I doubt it.
If someone makes a move on him in the guild, I'll probably still get defensive. But.. Oh well. I'll be alright.
We've agreed to just let it go. It was a dream we wished could come true, but we both realize it won't. It would be nice, but it won't. There is no realistic way to go about it. And while other dreams that I had along with meeting him popped like bubbles, I'll be alright.
To think.. I actually dreamed of being in a number of his photos. Not in a sexual way, just to be.. in photos. To look pretty. To be used as a model. I liked the idea. I still do. Given I have flaws, but.. who doesn't?
It could still happen. He could still describe to me what he wants, I take the picture, he plays with it in photoshop, but that would turn out to be horrendously complicated most likely. Oh well. It wouldn't be the same. Like everything else related to those dreams, I'm clicking on them and dragging them to the recycle bin. It's nice to know that if I do have an opportunity to meet him though.. if I could get out there, not just to meet him, but if I happen to be in the neighborhood, I'll visit.
I want to travel when I get out of college. I wanna see places, know things before I happen to maybe meet someone and stay in one location.
I'm a nomadic animal on the move with no herd. I'm a family of one.
I want to see parts of Europe and Egypt the most. And I want to go back to China, to see the countryside. I wanna see Alaska, and iceland, Hawaii.. I really want to travel.
Are these my own urges? Or am I getting them from somewhere like usual? I hate my sixth sense sometimes.
But, all in all, I'm happy. I'm content. I'll probably have some withdrawl issues, but.. oh well. They won't last long.
♥ My
doll smiled.
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