Monday, September 8, 2008
♥ Kalpricos (In Character)
My head is racing. There's so much to say..
But what do I say? That I am failing to keep my sanity? Because of a foreign voice in my head?
I'm writing this to you, my love. To you, whom I wish I could be with forever. I am realizing now that it may not be possible. It's not just the dreams anymore that I am having. It's during my conscious state, too. I have amnesia. I loss memories of certain moments in time, falling into a state of ecstasy and cold. There's snow all around me and his voice is so invigorating, so satisfying. It declares everything in my life for that one moment. And everything seems at peace, just for a second... before I am myself again, not really knowing what happened.
You say my eyes change from their glorious glowing green, to a howling, hellish blue. You say that my skin becomes pale and unnatural, cold to the touch. You say that my breath appears, even if the day is warm and bright, my breath blowing out of my mouth in a cloud of fog as if we were surrounded in a cold, frozen wasteland. You say this, and I fear the worst. I fear that one day, I won't be myself. I'll be his, eternally, a Death Knight in endless service, even in death itself.
What will exactly happen?
I don't know. But should you found this note, my love, understand that I loved you. I loved you more than the sun loves the moon, more than any of your previous fiances. More than the world and my own life..
I hope you understand.
If I should survive, if I should break free, I will come to you again. I will find a way to make it right, my love. My dearest.
I can only hope.. that my heart is not destined.. to be.. forever ..Frozen..
I love you, my sweetest Cathina Alej.
Kal
((If you didn't notice, Kalpricos was writing a note to his lover.))
But what do I say? That I am failing to keep my sanity? Because of a foreign voice in my head?
I'm writing this to you, my love. To you, whom I wish I could be with forever. I am realizing now that it may not be possible. It's not just the dreams anymore that I am having. It's during my conscious state, too. I have amnesia. I loss memories of certain moments in time, falling into a state of ecstasy and cold. There's snow all around me and his voice is so invigorating, so satisfying. It declares everything in my life for that one moment. And everything seems at peace, just for a second... before I am myself again, not really knowing what happened.
You say my eyes change from their glorious glowing green, to a howling, hellish blue. You say that my skin becomes pale and unnatural, cold to the touch. You say that my breath appears, even if the day is warm and bright, my breath blowing out of my mouth in a cloud of fog as if we were surrounded in a cold, frozen wasteland. You say this, and I fear the worst. I fear that one day, I won't be myself. I'll be his, eternally, a Death Knight in endless service, even in death itself.
What will exactly happen?
I don't know. But should you found this note, my love, understand that I loved you. I loved you more than the sun loves the moon, more than any of your previous fiances. More than the world and my own life..
I hope you understand.
If I should survive, if I should break free, I will come to you again. I will find a way to make it right, my love. My dearest.
I can only hope.. that my heart is not destined.. to be.. forever ..Frozen..
I love you, my sweetest Cathina Alej.
Kal
((If you didn't notice, Kalpricos was writing a note to his lover.))
♥ My
doll smiled.
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