Tuesday, September 9, 2008
♥ Broken
Yesterday, it felt like I was high on life, just like everyone should be.
Today, I'm as far down as I can sink.
Can only go up from here, right?
I feel like I pissed someone off, even if he tells me otherwise. I see the situation as a kind of dull grey color, a really boring and sulking color. I picture things as colors in my head. Like things I really like are bright, vibrant colors, like red, yellow, and blue, colors you see if you happen to trot on down a kids' toy aisle at the store. Everything's happy.
I see the BIG problem as currently an unhappy purple, a kind of color that could be bright and happy, but instead is something that isn't, something that is a dull struggle to reach a brighter mood. Something that won't make it.
Keep my chin up, right?
I'm trying. It's hard at times.
I don't like counselors. I know what some say, and that it's not admitting anything. But I can't help it. I'm German. Comes with the pride.
But I am heavily considering it. Though the last thing I need is for everyone to know, save for a few select. I don't want my boyfriend to know, really. One more thing for him to worry about. I don't like it when people worry about me. It's flattering, but really. There are other things on your mind to be concerned with.
Around me, I see colors of blue, of purple, of gray and black. Last night's fun on WoW was quite bright on the color scale.. until it took a nose dive to black.
I should sleep. I was awake last night for what feels like no reason. Sleep will help since it feels like I'm about to pass out.
Yeah... sleep.
I'mma go take a nap.
Today, I'm as far down as I can sink.
Can only go up from here, right?
I feel like I pissed someone off, even if he tells me otherwise. I see the situation as a kind of dull grey color, a really boring and sulking color. I picture things as colors in my head. Like things I really like are bright, vibrant colors, like red, yellow, and blue, colors you see if you happen to trot on down a kids' toy aisle at the store. Everything's happy.
I see the BIG problem as currently an unhappy purple, a kind of color that could be bright and happy, but instead is something that isn't, something that is a dull struggle to reach a brighter mood. Something that won't make it.
Keep my chin up, right?
I'm trying. It's hard at times.
I don't like counselors. I know what some say, and that it's not admitting anything. But I can't help it. I'm German. Comes with the pride.
But I am heavily considering it. Though the last thing I need is for everyone to know, save for a few select. I don't want my boyfriend to know, really. One more thing for him to worry about. I don't like it when people worry about me. It's flattering, but really. There are other things on your mind to be concerned with.
Around me, I see colors of blue, of purple, of gray and black. Last night's fun on WoW was quite bright on the color scale.. until it took a nose dive to black.
I should sleep. I was awake last night for what feels like no reason. Sleep will help since it feels like I'm about to pass out.
Yeah... sleep.
I'mma go take a nap.
♥ My
doll smiled.
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